Day 63 of boot camp

Well, day 63 began at about 12:00 AM I guess. Some family stuff is going on that I don't feel comfortable writing about, but we're all stressed out to sum it up. I eventually went back to sleep hours later, and woke up around 9:00 AM for class. I stayed for my Education class, but ended up having to go back home to take care of things here for the rest of the day. I got some shopping done - and bought Matt even more for his birthday when I go see him haha. Then I made a healthy Hawaiian pizza for myself for dinner tonight. After dinner I cleaned up a bit, then took my miniature poodle out for a jog in the rain. Now I'm watching Grimm on the couch with my dog, and typing on here. I am in dire need for a vacation, and I am so so extremely glad that I will be traveling to South Carolina to see Matt in a week. I guess it's true when they say - if something is going to go wrong, it will go wrong while your soldier is away. I just can't wait to marry him and travel and live with him - it's not too far away, but I still wish it were sooner :). I'm doing my best to stay positive throughout all the family drama, and missing Matt. Surprisingly I'm much stronger than I ever thought. I have to admit it's getting harder as the time gets closer to seeing Matt .. sounds weird right? You'd think it'd be so much easier knowing I'm about to see him, but it's not. It's not that I'm sad, but I just cannot stay calm!! I'm so excited, and nervous to see him! Kind of weird that I'd be nervous, I've known him for so long.. and I can be my complete self around him, but I'm still so nervous! I want everything to work out perfectly, and I want him to still think I'm perfect, and just ahh! I'm excited. It's just getting so hard to wait any longer!! I'm so close to seeing him, and I just want it to be now :)!!! I love him so much, and I cannot wait to tell him 10000000 times when I see him! I seriously will tell him I love him that many times, Maybe it will be the only thing I say. No, we have wedding details to discuss and I have so much to tell him, but the bulk of my words will be "I LOVE YOU!" that I know for sure. If I didn't make this clear enough earlier ...  I'M REALLY EXCITED!!
Tip of the day: If you're getting as close as I am to seeing your loved one, maybe you'd like to go out and buy them a little something. It'll make it seem so much more real that you will be seeing them soon.
Stay positive! You're getting so close, and you should be so excited!

Day 62 of boot camp

I woke up around 9, and walked up stairs to start my day. I sat on the couch, and opened my lap top to finish up a final paper for my British Literature class. After about an hour of failure to keep my eyes open I decided to take a nap. I was asleep for maybe 30 minutes, then decided I should probably drink some coffee and get to work on my paper. After hours of hard work, I finally perfected it. I then got up to check the mail (even though I know I will not get another letter I'm still going to check ... just in case). Nothing was in there for me, so I walked back inside and worked on some more school work. My family got home around 5, and we ate dinner together before I started back on my school work. Now I'm still working on stuff for school. It's been such a lazy day, but maybe that's just what I needed. I've been so busy lately, even on my days off from school. It was nice to be able to relax all day long. Now I just have to get through the rest of this week of school, and weekend full of work until I leave for South Carolina and will finally be able to see my soon to be hubby! I can't believe how close we are now! It's right around the corner, and I am sooo unbelievably excited! It's practically all I can think about. Even when I'm doing school work, or any other work Matt is constantly on my mind. I wonder if I'm on his much as much as he is on mine... No, there's no possibility of that! I plan to finish up my night by cleaning my messy room, and doing some pilates.
Tip of the day: Try and take a day to yourself. School, work, and missing your loved one can take a toll on your mind, and taking a day to relax can be very beneficial. So, try and find the time and just relax.
Stay positive!! You're getting so close!

Day 61 of boot camp

I woke up on the couch around 8:00AM, hoping for a Sunday morning call from Matt. We were informed the soldiers would be calling, so I was expecting something today! I laid there for a while, still half asleep, then finally got up to pour myself some coffee. I sat back down on the couch, pulled my fuzzy wolf blanket over my lap and turned on the TV. Shortly after, Matt's mom joined me in the family room and we talked and watched TV for a long time. Matt's little brother had a friend over the night before, and he eventually got  up to spend time with his friend before his mother came to pick him up. When she got to the house Matt's brother ended up going with her and her kids to some sort of festival somewhere! So, Matt's mom and I had the house to ourselves while Jesse, and Matt's step dad were out for the day. We continued to relax and watch TV while talking for hours - still waiting for a call from Matthew. I made myself get up and get ready for work around 2, just so I wasn't rushed later. I made some lunch and we sat and talked for longer, until I had to leave for work. I even waited an extra 10 minutes, just in case Matt called. As I was walking out the door their house phone rang. I immediately turned back around and followed his mom back in side with my arms full of bags, and blankets. I was ready to call work and tell them I'd be a little late because Matt called. It wasn't Matt on the phone though, just a family friend. I was disappointed, but glad I wouldn't have to cut our conversation short because of work. So, off I went. I walked in and very nervously walked up to Lindsey and explained to her how scared I was that Matt would call - and I wouldn't be able to answer. I can't even explain how horrible I would feel if Matt tried to call me, and I was unable to pick up the phone.  The last thing I want to do is make him sad!! The girls at work told me that if my phone rang they'd watch over the front so I could talk to Matt ... I love them, they are seriously the best. So the night went on, and I felt much more comfortable. My boss hired some men to play music for Cinco de Mayo today. They weren't bad, but they we'rent playing any Hispanic music either. They were older, around their later 50's probably. They were very nice, and wanted to talk to everyone in the restaurant. They even came up to talk to me, thinking I was Spanish. I informed them I was not at all, but they insisted that I looked the part. I've been told that my whole life, and I guess I might kind of look Latina with my dark skin, eyes, and hair, but I'm not. They even decided to come up with a Spanish name for me, Chichi ... which I was just told is a slang for boobs in Spanish. Great! Just so great and disgusting. I'm hoping the men had no idea, since I was completely unaware too. I'm assuming they are nice old men, and not creeps. Anyways, the night went by fast (not as fast as I wanted, but fast enough). I headed home around 7:30 - still no call from Matt, and thankfully no missed call. I sent his mom a text, asking if she received a call, but she said she had not either. Now I'm a little weirded out as to why he didn't call. The website said they were supposed to call!! I guess you can't always rely on what the Army says all the time though. My night went on, and I headed off to bed. I didn't go to bed though, I sat on my bed and listened to an old voice mail from Matt about 3 times. Then I read through all of his old letters and cried with my face buried in a blanket. Oh well, I miss him so much and I just had to cry a little to let it all out. 10 more days! That's not too bad... I can make it! I guess I'm just getting more and more excited because the time is getting so close, and I just don''t want to have to wait any longer!! - but I do, so I better just suck it up. I'm done crying now, and I'm cuddled up in bed typing this - very ready for sleep.
Tip of the day: If you feel sad, or lonely; one, just cry. - let it all out, you need to do that at least once in a while. Try reading through old notes, or listening to old messages to your loved one. Maybe it will make you feel so much better! I know it made me feel at least a little better!
Stay positive!!

Day 60 of boot camp

Day 60 started around 830 AM. I was supposed to wake up at 8, but my alarm didn't go off for some reason. I got up though, and quickly jumped in the shower. After that I hurried to get dressed so my mother and I could go to David's Bridal to pick up my slip, and Lindsey's bridesmaid dress. When we finally got there they informed us that my sisters dress AND my wedding dress were ready for pick up too! Which was great news considering they first told me it wouldn't be here until July! My mom decided to try on some dresses too, but didn't find anything she liked. We then started on a very confusing drive home. We almost ran out of gas, got lost a couple times, but eventually found our way! Although it was a difficult drive, I have to say it was very funny. When we got home I relaxed for a while until about 3:00 when the mail got here. I sped walked down to the mailbox to find a letter from Matt! I sprinted back to the house, and flew into the house trying to catch my breath. I sat at the kitchen table reading, and smiling from cheek to cheek. Sadly, Matt said this would be his last letter to me, but at least I will see him in about 10 days! That's not so bad at all :). I happily headed off to work afterwards, and had a pretty good night except for the fact my stomach has been killing me. I got to. Matt's around 9:00PM and found out she was watching some friends children! The little boy played with Matt's little brother, and Matt's mother and I had the pleasure of playing barbies with his little sister! I'm not much of a Barbie player, but I did my best. It's now almost 12:00AM, and I should probably get to bed. I know Matt should definitely be calling tomorrow, and I just pray it's before I have to go to work.
Tip of the day: get out for a little. Whether it be with your mom, or someone else, try and get out of the house and have some fun! Maybe it won't be getting lost and confused driving home with your mom like I did, but something fun!
Stay positive! You're getting closer and closer each day to seeing your loved one! Always try and keep that mind set.

Day 59 of boot camp

Yesterday, I got to sleep in for a tiny bit before heading off to my last Biology class! Class seemed to go on forever, but I finally made it home. I talked to my mom for a bit, sat outside by myself enjoying the nice weather, and then came back inside to get ready for work! I slowly, but surely got myself ready, then headed out the door and into my car. I checked the mail to find nothing again, but I didn't let it get me down. Work was a little hectic when I first arrived. My reservation book was no where in sight, and I didn't know how to work the new printer for our specials menu. Everything eventually got done though, and the night went on. We were surprisingly VERY busy for a Friday night. One of my reservations that walked in saw part of my Russian tattoo on my shoulder and insisted on taking a picture of it. Flattering, but strange. You get all kinds in the restaurant business. I left at my normal time, painfully walking through the parking lot on my feet that felt flat as pancakes from standing all night. I came home to find a big house salad waiting for me, and a fresh baked desert (which I don't need - but ate anyways). I stayed up kind of late, watching TV and talking to my mom, but I finally walked down to my room at a halfway decent time. The day went by fast, and I'm definitely not complaining about that. A little over a week until I get to go see Matt!! I'm so so excited, I can barely contain myself at times!
Tip of the day: Go somewhere by yourself and enjoy some alone time to clear your busy mind (because I can almost guarantee it's busy). Get a nice coffee, or a cool drink and just take some time to relax!
Stay positive!!

Day 58 of boot camp

Today is Matt's 21st birthday!!! And I cannot be with him, which makes me very sad. I hope he's gotten my birthday card by now, but who knows. Last week he told me it had been a week since he got any mail from me. I'm sure you all know me pretty well by now, and know that I definitely sent several letters - there's no way I'd let him go letter-less for a week! So, I left the house a little early to pump gas before heading to school. I think I left a little too early though, because I got there about 30 minutes early. So, I sat in my car and took a quick cat nap before walking to class. After class I spoke with my professor about assignments I need to get in for my LAST WEEK next week! Then I go see Matt!! After that I stopped by the mall to buy some presents, then sat outside of Barnes and Noble to be rudely disturbed by a loud girl talking about drugs on her cell phone and blowing cigarette smoke in my face. I decided to walk away and drive back to school. I sat in the parking lot for hours listening to classic rock, and reading up on some history before class. The time passed slowly, but it eventually came time for class. I grabbed a coffee and headed up the stairs. Class went by pretty fast, and then I was on my way home. I stopped by the mailbox, but found nothing from Matt today. I wasn't too disappointed, but I'll keep checking every day! I ate some left overs for dinner, then hopped in the shower for much needed relaxing time. After that my mom and I headed to Walmart, I needed to pick up a prescription, and get some other things, and she needed flowers. We got home around 8:00 PM, and I started on some homework. I finished one of my assignments, but I'll start on another as soon as  I'm done this. I was a little sad today, since it's Matt's birthday he's on my mind extra today! I know I'll see him so soon, but I just don't want to wait any longer! Whenever I start to think about seeing him I get so excited, and my stomach fills with happy, fluttering butterflies! I've only got about a week and 4 days to go. I know it's going to fly by, but for now it still seems too far away! haha. I sound ridiculous, this is nothing  compared to the 70 something days we started with, but I just can't help myself.
Tip of the day: Earlier, when I told my friend Sarah I was feeling sad she told me to "Get out and enjoy the day :)" I couldn't exactly do this because I had class, but it's good advice. When you're having a bad day, especially during the beautiful spring time - get out and enjoy the day! I'm sure the pretty weather will make you feel better and lighten whatever mood you may be in.
Stay positive! :)

Day 57 of boot camp

I spent the bulk of my day at a middle school, observing in a 7th grade class. In the morning I thought, "aw teaching middle school wouldn't be so bad". NO NO NO it's bad. Wait until about 1:00 PM - it's bad. Don't ever think it might be fun to teach middle school unless you'll be there for the morning only. It's sad how much children have changed, it's like they are not even children anymore. It's actually quite disgusting if you ask me. It's sad to see. Oh well, nothing you can really do about it. All of my observations are complete now, thank the Lord! I've decided to stick with my first decision and stay with teaching High School level kids. Old enough to understand more complex ideas, and mature enough for me to joke around with or get mad at without crying (mostly). I got home and changed into comfier clothing before heading to Matt's house. On my way I stopped by the mail box to find a letter from my honey! It was from before he called, and just got to me today. I'm not allowed to send him any more mail, but I sure hope I get some more from him, or I just might go crazy. I think I should come to terms with the fact that I will probably end up going "crazy", because I highly doubt he will have the time to send me any more letters. There's only 2 weeks left, and I know the last week he will be slammed. So, I will continue to hope, but I expect that I will not get any more letters. As Matt said in one of his letters to me, "Expect the worst, but hope for the best". That sounds a little depressing maybe, but whatever haha! So, I got to Matt's house and after talking to his mom for a bit I looked down to find a little baby fox in a cage on the kitchen floor. Needless to say, my heart melted on the spot. I've never been so close to a little baby wild animal before, and I even got to hold him!! We sat outside for a while, playing games and taking in the sun. Then we all came back in to relax on the couch, watching Wednesday night TV shows, and eating dinner. I went home around 10:00 PM, talked to my mom for a little, then went down stairs to go to bed. I'm obviously not asleep yet, not sure when I'll get there ... but it will happen eventually. I'm so ready for this week to be over.
Ti p of the day: Don't teach middle school until you've been completely mentally prepared .. haha no, I'm kidding. Kind of. A serious tip of the day (Although I was serious about the middle school thing), clear your mind of all the over emotional crazy thoughts and let yourself understand that not everything will go your way all the time. I find myself getting upset whenever I don't receive a letter - but that's pretty stupid of me. Matt's working his cute butt off in boot camp, and I'm back home crying because I didn't get  letter for a couple of days? When looking back on that, I realize how dumb that is. I get upset because I miss him SO much, I can't help it at the moment, but when looking back I realize I should just be happy that I have him to miss. Matt is truly amazing, and I'm just so happy I get to spend the rest of my life with him!
Stay positive!! You're getting closer and closer to seeing your loved one!