Day 43 of boot camp

It's Wednesday - the week is halfway over! Actually it's Wednesday night, so the week is more than half way over. Weeks are definitely seeming to go by faster now, and I'm SO glad. I woke up this morning, showered, got some coffee in me, and hung out with my mom for a while. I chose some 'favorite' wedding dresses online so that the women at the shop will have an idea of what I want before I get there this Sunday. How exciting! After that I taped up a box full of wedding presents for Sarah, and sent them on their way! I headed off to Matt's house when I was finished with that and his mom and I took a long walk around a park while chatting away. It was a very nice walk and talk. After that we headed back home and waited for Jesse, Matt's younger brother, to get home from school. Once he got home the two of us played a game of basketball (I won just in case you were wondering) before it was time to take a trip to Walmart! When the Walmart trip was over we went back home, and I played basketball with Jesse once again while his mom got dinner ready. We sat together and ate while watching Wheel Of Fortune, then played badminton outside for about an hour. It started to get dark, so Matt's mom headed inside. Jesse turned on the flood light and we played soccer for about another hour - which is fine with me because I absolutely love soccer! I beat him at this game :). Jesse then decided he may want to play soccer, and be a goalie. I think that's great, maybe he will find something he really likes! After I sweated my butt off running around the backyard, and got my head all dirty by heading a wet and grass soaked soccer ball, we ended our game and went back inside. Since I was in the basement already I walked into Matt's old bedroom, turned on the light, and made my way around looking at everything that is still sitting up. Workout equipment  pictures of me, some things I made/gave to him, and other randoms filled the quiet room. It still smells like him. I miss that smell. I wanted to cry right then and there, but I didn't. I sucked up my feelings, turned the light off, and walked out of his room and up the stairs to sit with his family once more. A little while after, we said our goodbyes, and I headed back to my house. While driving home I thought to myself that I am just ready to see Matt again. I mean, I've been ready ever since he left, but I am sooooo ready now! I'm ready to be able to talk to him again, I'm ready to be able to hug and kiss him, I'm ready to just be able to look at him! I still have quite a few days and weeks left, and I will continue to patiently wait until I am able to be with him again - but I'm just saying, I'm ready now!
Tip of the day: Go play something outside! The weather is starting to get nicer (at least here it is), and hey, everyone could use a little exercise! It'll keep your mind busy, and your heart pumpin'!  You may as well try and be in good shape for your soldier's homecoming - I'm sure they'd like that!
Stay positive! You're another day closer!

Day 42 of boot camp

My day started at about 8:30 AM. I got up, got dressed for school, and deposited a check before getting to school. After my first class I went to the mall. I bought myself a Blue Oyster Cult CD, and some wedding presents for my soon to be married friend, Sarah! I'll hopefully get that shipped out tomorrow so she'll get it as soon as possible. After shopping I headed back to school for my last two classes, then got home around 7:30 PM (and that's only because I got out of my last class early). Once again, today has been a long day - but some how hasn't seemed as long as yesterday. I heated up some left overs for dinner - not my favorite, but I'll take what I can get - then began my speed walk on the treadmill. After I finished that, I recovered by laying on the floor and drowning my insides with water. I hate how out of breath I get, but that's one of the down sides of asthma. After that I relaxed out the couch, watched some TV, then started some pilates. Now  I'm on the couch again, writing this. I'm hoping to hear from Matt soon, I don't really expect to because it hasn't been that long since the last time I heard from him, and I know he's busy - but a girl can still hope. Today I found myself almost constantly thinking about Matt. I miss him more than anything, and I wish I didn't have to wait anymore - but he's worth it. There's no doubt in my mind that he's worth it. There is no one else I'd rather be with, so the only choice I have is to wait patiently until we can finally be together again, and that's perfectly fine with me. We're down to the 20's now, with 29 days until I can see Matt again! I'm thinking the last few undoubtedly busy weeks of school with help the time to fly by so I won't be too anxious while waiting for this time to finally be over with.
Tip of the day: Go shopping - I suggest window shopping. It's almost just as fun to window shop as it is to spend money and it wastes time too! So, you get some of the fun of shopping without wasting money! Time is ticking by, some days slower than others - but it's ticking by non the less! It's hard, but Matt's worth it.
Stay positive! I'm in the 20's now, where are you?

Day 41 of boot camp

Day 41 has been a long one. I woke up around 9, finished some letters for Matt and headed out the door to send those out. After that I went back home and put some finishing touches on two papers that are due tomorrow. Around 12:30 Lindsey and Aubrey came over and we hung out for a little before taking Aubrey to the doctors. My poor God daughter had to get two shots, but she was a trooper, and she pulled herself back together and was in a great mood for our lunch date. After lunch Lindsey dropped me back off at my house. I hugged her goodbye and she and Aubrey went back home. My allergies have been particularly bad this week, so I am exhausted to say the least. I stretched out on the couch and fell asleep for a couple hours. I woke up a couple times, but really got up around 8:00 PM. I made myself a cup of coffee and a bowl of cereal.  Now my parents and I are watching TV and I'm typing away on here. Although I didn't type much above, let me tell you - it has been a LONG day. Ever since I got that call from Matt it seems as though I miss him even more (if that is even possible)! I just wish I could talk to him more, but that is impossible.  Luckily, we only have a month left until we are reunited for at least a couple days, and then he'll have his phone and be able to talk to me a little more often. That will be so nice. My mother told me today that we have an appointment at a bridal shop this Sunday at 1:30. I'm so excited! It's a little difficult to plan things out without Matt to talk to, but at least I can pick out a dress.
Tip of the day: Take a little time for yourself, and take a nap or something. Take some down time to just relax and clear your mind. I can't guarantee it will make you feel better, but it did help me some.
Stay positive! You've been strong all this time, there's nothing that can stop you now!

Day 40 of boot camp

1 month left!! I'm hoping this month goes by super fast. My morning started off perfectly, and you may be wondering why. I got woken up around 7:40 AM with a phone call. This wasn't just any phone call though. I picked up and said "Hello?" in a groggy morning voice. On the other end of the phone I heard a familiar voice say "Maddie?". I swear my heart melted when I heard that. It was Matt! I finally got a phone call! It was so hard to hear him. He sounded so far away, and half of the time his words were muffled. We started talking about a bunch of random things, and after a minute I realized I hadn't told him I loved him yet. I stopped whatever what I was saying and said "I love you". Matt stopped our conversation too, and replied with "I love you more". I can still hear his words echoing in my mind. Our phone call seemed to end way too quickly, before I knew it Matt told me he had to go. I said I love you about 5 more times before we had to end our call. I stayed on the phone until I heard his end of the line click off. I waited for a second then put down my phone too. As soon as I did that the water works started. I laid there on the couch with my hand over my face crying until there were no more tears. I hung out at his house for a little longer talking wedding with his mom. Around 10:30 I left and came home to go out with my sister. The two of us drove out to the movie theater and saw the new GI Joe movie. As soon as we sat down my mind started spinning with thoughts of Matt. He and I would go to the movies all the time, I never went with anyone else. Sitting in the theater watching the previews brought back so many memories of sitting there with him. The movie previews even made me think of him, because I wished that we could go see those movies together, but he will still be gone when they come out. I didn't think of this ahead of time, but this whole movie was about GI Joe's who were part of the Army. So, during the whole entire movie I was thinking about, and missing Matt. I even almost cried when one of the men died. I know Matt will not be in the same crazy situations as these people, but it still made me think of him. After the movie we went to the mall to buy Morgan some dress clothes. We made it home just in time for dinner, and after that my sister, mother, and I went for a long walk. I've spent the rest of the night sitting on the couch finishing up some things for school. As the night gets later I find myself thinking more and more about Matt, also probably because I'm typing about him now. I just miss him so much, and I feel like we did not get nearly enough time to talk on the phone this morning. I just wish that he could be here now, but I know he cannot so I must toughen up until I can finally be with him again.
Tip of the day: keep your mind clear. When you're missing your loved one remember, there isn't much you can do about it right now, and it will be over soon enough. You're loved one is far away being strong, so you must stay strong while you are back home.
Stay strong and positive!

Day 39 of boot camp

I got to sleep in today, which was nice. I woke up, did some pilates then went upstairs to have some much needed coffee. After that Morgan and I took a long walk around our neighborhood. Once we got home we cleaned up and went to the store to buy some healthy strawberry smoothie essentials. We made lunch, drank our smoothies, and sat around for a little while. I got dressed for work and waited for the mail arrive. The mail finally arrived and I hustled out the door. Not that I really expected a letter since I had just received one the other day. I was correct, and I did not receive a letter today. It's okay though, because like I said I had just  got one yesterday. I finished up my letter to Matt, then once it was time to head off to work I stopped by the post office to mail it. Work went by pretty fast. It was a fairly busy night with a lot of large tables, so I kept busy. I arrived to Matt's house and quickly showered before his family and I sat down to eat Chinese food for dinner. His mom and I talked about the upcoming wedding while we ate, and I was very happy to have her support for us. We're all now lounging comfortably in the family room while watching a pawn show on TV. I'll sleep here tonight as I usually do. I'm so glad I am so close with them!
Tip of the day: Don't think about the sad things so much, like how much you miss your loved one, but think of the happy things like when you'll get to see them and how happy the two of you will be to be able to see each other and talk to each other again! Being sad will do you no good, trust me.
Stay positive!!

Day 38 of boot camp

Day 38 has been a long one, and I have to say I'm glad it's over. I let myself sleep in a little this morning and headed off to my Friday class in the pouring rain. I don't like driving to begin with, and then I had to drive in the pouring rain with about 10% visibility at one point. I got to class just in time. We even got to leave early because we had a test. I arrived home around 12:00 PM and decided to go for a jog/walk. I can't really jog for long periods of time because of my asthma so I would switch off between a brisk walk, and a faster paced jog. I got home in about 45 minutes and relaxed until it was time to get dressed for work. After that I sat and waiting again. I was waiting to leave, and waiting for the mail to get here. It was about 20 minutes before I had to leave the house when the mail finally arrived. I hustled down to the mail box to find another letter waiting for me! I grabbed the mail, and like many other times sprinted back into the house. I stood in the kitchen and read each of the three folded up pieces of paper inside the envelope. Matt and I had spoke earlier of getting married after his AIT, which would be in September. I told him that I would definitely do this, and I had been waiting for his response to that. He's all for it too - so I'm now planning a wedding for this September! I can't believe it, but I am SO over joyed!! I want nothing more than to be with Matt, and after I finish up at FCC I will be able to go and live with him on base. Just typing about it  makes me smile and warms my heart. It's going to be hard to plan a wedding in 5 months, but I'm going to take on this challenge and succeed. I'm so excited!! Work was slow, and I had a headache - but that's pretty normal for Friday's. I got to come home early, and now I'm watching TV and typing away. I plan to do my nightly workout after this and write a letter to Matt - then I'll go to bed (maybe).
Tip of the day: Get some sleep - or as much sleep as you can. Lately I haven't been getting as much sleep as I should, and I can feel it weighing me down. I've been getting headaches more frequently, and I think the lack of sleep is one of the biggest reasons. You're mind is probably already stressed because you're missing your loved one, so do your best to lower the amount of stress so you can stay healthy!
Stay positive!!

Day 37 of boot camp

Wow, we're getting closer to 40 now. That's a long time! Sometimes I take a step back and still can't believe Matt has been gone so long. I have no idea how I'm surviving, but I am - and that's good.
  This morning I woke up around 9, did my hair, got dressed, typed up a journal entry for my Education class, and then headed off to attend that class. After that I did some studying outside for History. The weather has been beautiful lately; warm, sunny, and a slight breeze too! As great as this weather is, my allergies have been acting up, thus causing a horrible headache today. Of course, I had taken my headache medicine out of my purse, so I decided to drive home. While driving my headache got even worse, and it seemed like it took me an hour to finally get to my house. Before parking I decided to check the mail, because well why not! The mail wasn't there yet. I took some migraine medicine and sat down for about 30 minutes until I headed back to school for my last class of the day. I noticed I was very tired on the drive back though, so I bought myself a $1.35 coffee from the cafeteria, then sat in a dark classroom for about 20 minutes, waiting for it to begin.  25 minutes into class and I found out I probably shouldn't have gotten that coffee. The caffeine in the migraine medicine, and the caffeine in the coffee had enveloped my whole mind and body leaving me feeling slightly crazy, and dizzy. I didn't feel the energy part of the caffeine overdose until after class was over, and then I drove home extremely impatient with the other drivers around me. I did my best to keep my cool while idiots slammed on their brakes for no reason, and switched lanes without turn signals (one of my biggest pet peeves on the road). I, and many others, made it home in one piece. I checked the mail once more to sadly find nothing for me (I'm still hoping for something tomorrow). I walked inside to my family standing in the kitchen waiting for me to come home so we could eat dinner. They heated left overs, and I ate the rest of my salad from last night until a stink bug landed on my head and ruined my appetite. After dinner my parents made a trip to Costco, and my sister and I took a long walk around the neighborhood. We got back around 8:00 PM, and both finished up some last minute homework. Around 9 I hauled my tired butt down stairs to do my nightly workout routine. My sister, Morgan, came down shortly after to steal one of my shirts to wear to school tomorrow - which is fine, she's not really stealing since I told her she could. I finished up my workout, showered, painted my nails, plucked my eyebrows, and now here I am in bed typing like I do every night. I'm going to be tired tomorrow.
Tip of the day: If you take, or drink something with caffeine in it, wait a little bit for that to kick in before taking or drinking something else with caffeine in it. Trust me, it's no fun. Keep your days as busy as you can without overloading yourself. When you're busy, your mind is busy - meaning you don't have as much time to sulk about missing your loved one. I have to admit, even while I'm keeping busy Matt is always on my mind, and most of the time I am talking about him. But, even so, talking to someone else about him is better than sitting alone, thinking about how much I miss him, and how much I wish we could be together at that moment.
Stay positive! Another week is almost done!