The unknown

I've spent the weekend with Matt and heard plenty about the army, and him leaving, and how long he'll be gone, and what he'll be doing, and when he'll come home.. so on and so on. I suppose while other people are around I can easily conceal my emotions. I feel, and hope, that my face shows no signs of how scared I really am. I know it's only 6 months, but since we've been together the longest I've been away from him is about a week. I don't even know what I'm scared of. I do not want to be sad, that's not an option though. I definitely will feel sad, every day I'm not with him. I don't want to not hear from him, but that's not an option either. He will be busy, and has already told me he won't have much time, if any, to write letters while he's in boot camp. That's three months. Three months with no contact at all. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? The fact is, I don't know. I have no idea how I will feel, what I will do, or how he is doing. I believe that is what scares me the most. The unknown.