Sunday, January 27, 2013

I have to, and so I will

35 days till Matt leaves, and I'm sitting in bed crying my eyes out. It's okay to cry, I feel at least a little better afterwards. I don't know what I'm going to do when he leaves. I will no doubt think about him every day, and probably even cry several times a month, and probably every day for at least a week. I hate going into this with no idea what to expect, but I have to, and so I will.
Sometimes I think "I don't want to do this!" I don't want to be without him for a year. Not being able to kiss him and cuddle him and talk to him face to face for long periods of time. Then I think, who else would I want to do all those things with though? The answer is NO ONE! There is no one else in the world who I would rather be with than Matt, and there is absolutely no doubt in my mind about that. This is what Matt wants, and Matt is what I want. Even if I'm scared out of my mind and don't want to feel the pain of being alone for a little, as I said before... I have to, and so I will.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

What am I doing?

I plan to keep this blog up while my fiancé is away in the army. He leaves for boot camp March 4th 2013. I'm dreadfully counting the days till his departure. I have no idea what to expect and so I will be blogging about my feelings, how I am dealing with them, and what else I'm doing to keep myself busy while he's away.

What I'm hoping is that anyone else who is going through the same thing that I, as well as many others are going though will find this blog, read, enjoy, and gain comfort from my words.

Sometimes knowing that someone else is making it though the same difficult experience that you are can make all the difference.

                                                                Here we are!